Day 70: Jacked up.

My shoulder is jacked up. That workout from day 63 was the final straw for it. It's been unworkable since then. I can do my cardio & my legs, but anything involving the arms is a no-go. It sucks, it pisses me off, but I pushed to keep up when I should've been taking it easier, and now I have to rest it for an extended period. (Swell.)

I don't have anything else to add at this point--just frustrated. Upset. Sore.

Day 63: Pizza's revenge & General Suckitude

Pizza's Revenge

Two nights ago, I slipped and had pizza. It's what my folks were having for dinner & I just didn't want to bother with fixing myself anything. I had 2 pieces--so nothing binge-y but still (obviously) a definite slip. My stomach let me enjoy it for about 20 minutes before it started protesting. I felt awful after that--bloated and indigestion and uncomfortable and stomach cramps. Blech. I sucked down some pepto bismol which helped, but still--blech. The good part of that? It has totally put me off pizza. The thought of eating it is completely unappealing. It actually kind of makes me gag to think about it.

General Suckitude

My workout today sucked. My shoulder ached/was on fire no matter what it was I was doing, and I just felt generally WEAK as hell. I felt weaker than I have since PCP started, I think. The more I tried to just push through it, the more agitated I felt. I worked myself into a ragingly pissed off mood, but it wasn't even the good pissed-off that gives you extra juice for the workout... it was just the pissed off, irritated, generally-angry-at-everything-and-nothing feeling. I was glad I wasn't working out with or around anyone else, because I think I would've snapped at them for breathing. Even my beloved stretching wasn't enjoyable like it usually is. Everything just sucked.

I'm hoping tomorrow is a better workout day.

Day 61: I have no idea what time it is.

So Daylight Savings Time began again this weekend, and it always throws me for a loop. When DST is in effect, my body loses all sense of what time it is. I know it's only an hour's difference from standard time, but I become so time-disoriented! You know how you usually have some semi-accurate internal clock? I lose mine when we spring ahead. For instance, right now, it's 6:25pm. Except that until I looked at the clock just now, I really thought it was around 3 in the afternoon. You'd think that after years of switching, I'd be used to it... but no. Once DST starts, I am perpetually perplexed as to what time it is.

On the plus side, it is 6:30pm and it's still gorgeously blue-skied outside. I love springtime.

Here's someone else who loves springtime... my dog, Rosco. This is him basking in the sun in my backyard. Rosco is a St. Bernard + Labrador mix who will be 12 in August.

And though this isn't outside, I had to include a picture of my other dog, just to be fair. :) This is Ernie. He's a rat terrier who turned 10 on Valentine's Day.

My workout is done for the day, and it felt good. I realized I'm one day behind on the workouts--I did Day 60's workout today & will do Day 61's workout tomorrow. I don't know when that happened that I got my days out of order... but I blame Daylight Savings Time.

Day 60: 2/3 Done!

Congratulations to my fellow January PCPers--we're 2/3 of the way to our "COMPLETE" stamps! :)

My left shoulder is still hurting. It's remained just sort of a dull, deep ache for the past couple of days. I couldn't do the lawnmower exercises because of it--that motion across the body hurts. The back exercises move the shoulder in the way that hurts it more than the shoulder exercises do, actually. I'm just really tired of it hurting all the time. It is limiting and painful and I don't know how to make it better. I want to fix things, and I get frustrated when I can't figure out how to fix something.

I also can't do the kung fu sit-ups... I don't trust the door frames to hold my full body weight. I'm still plenty challenged by the v-crunches, though, so I'm not letting my abs off easy by not doing the kung fu ones. They're still getting worked hard, just not in the exact exercise prescribed for that day.

I updated my photos (finally). It had been a month. I wasn't too concerned with updating them since I really felt like there wasn't a visible difference. I still don't think there is. When I look at the photo now from a month ago, they're still pretty interchangeable. So... I'm trying to just ignore my photos. They're kind of a downer.

But back to the first point--yay for being 2/3 done!

Day 58: Checking in

I have absolutely nothing to say, really... but I worked out yesterday & today & wanted to check in... so here I am!

Check-in: check.

Day 57: 3%

So I weighed in today--I know I'm not supposed to be checking my weight, but my scale has a bodyfat measurer in it (who knows how accurate, but it's the only one I've got), and you have to let it weigh you to get to the bodyfat percentage part.

The good news is that I'm down 3% in bodyfat! ::busts out happy dance::

Day 56: Time & choices

I got an email from Patrick noting that it was approaching 10 days since my last update. Which--good golly, how has it been almost 10 days?! And that is reflective of how the last week or so has been--very swift moving. It's been GREAT in a lot of ways: I've been writing a lot more (good for my website, good for my work), I've been doing a lot of cool creating and networking with other people (again, good for my work, good for my site, good for future products).

But I'm finding it really hard to balance the extra emphasis in the work sphere with the PCP. I find myself having to choose between more time with whatever I'm working on and spending the time necessary to workout, and I admit, I haven't chosen working out more than about 50% of the time. I don't pretend that I don't have "enough" time or that it's not a choice. I've just been choosing to spend extra hours on work & creation & connection rather than spending usual hours on work/creation/connection and then also working out.

There is enough time in my day for both--but because of when I get up, when I work, and when I'm best able to work out, it would require me to skip out on doing family stuff in the evening, which I'm rarely willing to do. Again, it's not that I can't, it's that between working out & family time, I choose family time.

It's nothing novel... the struggle to fit all the pieces into one's day is only about the most unoriginal problem ever. But that's where I'm at. I confess to struggling and I confess to not consistently making the workout-choice.

On the physical side of things, my shoulder is still really sore. Today it's been just a constant, dull ache that seems to emanate from deep inside the shoulder. I still can't move the arm back or laterally without sharp pain. So that still sucks, and has continued to rule out dips and some of the shoulder work as a possibility.

So that's my update... such as it is! Struggling, but still here.